Life Update and Sayings
Hi! Do you remember when I wrote that blog post about ch-ch-changes and how I was going to start blogging consistently? You do? Great! I remember it too.
I was so excited and had so many plans. They went like this:
Write blog posts on the weekend, so they don't disturb my book writing schedule.
Post three times a week according to this schedule: Posts on life and changes on Tuesdays. Book related subjects on Thursday. Cooking and baking stuff on Sunday.
Have a ton of fun doing it!
Okay, that's not a lot of plans. It was just two and a half plans, but they were good ones and made me happy about sharing a bit of my life with you. For an introvert, that's many things.
However, aside from remembering the time of plans and excitement, I also remember the saying, "Man plans, God laughs." As sayings go, not my favorite, to be honest. I don't think that God is laughing at people's plans, nor do I believe He has anything to do with when or how or why plans go down the drain. Life just sucks sometimes, and we have to put desires and plans on hold to focus on other things. "It is what it is," a saying I like much better.
This is exactly what happened. Life sucked, and blogging didn't feel important. Actually, it felt like something I couldn't do even if I tried. But let me stop the babbling and explain myself.
About a week before all the changes started, I noticed that our beloved dog, Bruce, had this pain under his front right leg. Since he was fifteen years old, the vet thought it was just arthritis or another age-related disease. She ordered an x-ray of his chest and front legs -- which came out normal -- and gave him some pain pills.
He got better. We moved. I blogged. Life was going great. Then, about two days after my biscuit post, he started vomiting and pooping blood. It was bad and, after another visit to the vet, we discovered that he had several tumors and very little time.
Bruce joined his older brothers, Jesse and Quick, on August 2nd, and saying goodbye to him has been rough. I don't really want to talk about it now -- I will at some point, probably on a Life Chat Tuesday, but not today. That, however, is where I've been for the last month.
I'm still heartbroken, and I know I will be for a very long time, but life must go on. So here I am, posting about life when I should be posting about books, and trying my best to find some normalcy again. Another ch-ch-change to the list. It's my least favorite, but it is what it is.